I just woke from a very pleasant dream. I was at a sporting event that allowed us to bring our cars on an elevator (dreams!) I was with Sharyn Henderson, Valerie Macogni, and several other nurses I'd worked with for many years. We were having fun.
Maybe my brain hasn't adjusted to the fact that when it hears "you are going to the hospital" it no longer means "you are going to work." My sister Mary Ann asked what it was like to be a patient after years of being a nurse. Well, I used to pray before work, "Please give me wisdom to do no harm and ears that really listen to their needs." Now I pray, "Please give them wisdom to do no harm and ears that really listen to my needs." Not so different, right? My bag is packed and looks very much like my work bag except I now bring a blanket for comfort. I used to bring chocolate to work for comfort.
I did learn something on this week of getting stronger. Lids is not a hat store unless you are going to a sporting event. (thus, the dream?) And Macy's has a plethora of hats.
I will never stop saying it. I am so thankful to have all of you who support me in whatever way you are comfortable or led to do. I am peaceful today. I won't need the Xanax so far anyway. (Non medical people: this is a pill for anxiety which is given to you when you get a cancer diagnosis). The scripture that worked for me today came from Anna Herbst, another nurse. "Be still and know that I am..." Ps 46:10. This is not a competition friends. I love ALL the scriptures that have been sent to me and keep reading them because God uses them through you. I'll write you again after chemo when I'm feeling up to it! Happy New Year's Eve!