Thursday, January 1, 2015


A simple thanks for the prayers. I went in yesterday and was astounded that everything they put in me  (with no reactions thank you) only took an hour and a half compared to 5-6 hours last time. They are babying me, I know, but it's fine with me. Oh, and I LOVE having a port. A faucet to the circulatory system. It's so cool.

The last couple of days I kept hearing (the Spirit of God?) saying, "Joy comes in the morning." Whenever I hear this scripture I think of my cousin Joy who lives in Florida. I think, "Oh that would be nice" and then I laugh. I usually do not consider it being a word of the Lord for me. But last night I couldn't sleep. First I struggled with thoughts of the lack of productivity in my life. My big goal for today was prayer and 30 minutes of "exercise" which I hoped would be cleaning the refrigerators because. Well, you know. Because. I started down the slippery slope of thinking of all that I miss. Then nausea set in. Then I took pills for that which didn't do much so I took the second pills that are given for when the first don't work and at 3am I went to sleep. I woke up at 7am with Joy in the morning!

Emotions are weird. We can't choose what pops up in our minds, but we sure can chose how much attention to give it! I choose the joy that came this morning and cleaned both refrigerators listening to upbuilding music and found a ton of leftovers so Walt won't have to shop for a couple of days. I am a busy bee style person, so when I do physical work I get more joy. I am now exhausted and ready to listen to my body and go to bed. Turn my phone off. But don't feel bad for me. I am full of the joy that was promised to me this morning.

Thanks for your love and support. I'm counting on you!And thanks to the Raways for my new magnet pictured above.

4 comments:

  1. I can't tell if my first effort as commenting went through. Here goes again.
    This is my first time on this blog. So glad to hear of your story of joy! here is hoping you have many and frequent experiences like this! and no side effects! especial nausea or infections!! love you!! Barbette

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  2. Hi Pam, I am a friend of Melanies and your words are so beautiful. Continued prayers for healing for you and that you find Joy in all things! This post reminds me of a verse from James I've been studying... "2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters,[a] whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything." Prayers to you as you continue your treatments!!

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  3. I thank God for you Pam! Praise God you had the energy to clean the refrigerators. A miracle! Praise God you got some sleep. What a blessed every day miracle! Sleep! The night is so long if you can't sleep. Praise God for His Joy!!!! Be filled with it. Love you! Anne

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  4. Your honesty is disarmingly powerful, Pam. Thank you for sharing the ins and outs of your struggle. You are the real deal! Count on my daily prayers. You belong to the Lord and to so many others who love you!
    ~Bridget

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